tree swing please.

spring break U.S. jazz trip?
concert went well...
there are still songs that i have only played once... or never... that show up on our setlist...
:(
yeah... makes one feel downcast.
yet it was still fun, i'm an oxymoron, being miserable and happy can happen at the same time.
thankfully.
or happiness wouldn't have gotten a word in edgewise for the past few weeks with the avalanche of stress from school, yelling from parents, and stupid apologies from what's his face.

*random
does he realize how many girls at school want to cheapshot him for what he's done to me?
and me, being who i am, defend him for pete's sake... i just can't acknowledge flaws in people can i?
but hey, several people think he needs to grow up. i agree now.

*sigh*
i just want to swing, with barefeet... under a tree... that's what i would always do at school... was a safe place, no matter what my mom or peers had said... 45 minutes on a swing... yes please.

i'd best get to sleep. long day tomorrow with nothing to do but sit on the bus.
all. day.

on the upside of the day, at a rest stop a cute guy in a hockey shirt saw my hockey shirt, his eyes lit up and he told his friend 'hey, hey, that girl has on a hockey shirt! yes!' made me laugh.
getting a visitor's guide for kansas and laughing at seeing my hometown in it... well, it's kind of my home town...
and i listened to a lot of jack's mannequin, jack johnson, and the rocket summer.

ha. 'let you go'
"There is a beautiful ending, But you're never gonna read the book, I know you won't, There's a magical ending, But you're never gonna read the book, I know you won't, Walk away, I know it hurts, Don't be afraid, And know your worth, Just walk away, I know it hurts..."
sarcasm says: he read the book by it's cover.

"They never knew, they never knew, what you're going through. 'Cause you've got everybody thinking there's nothing wrong with you. And you fall apart, cause you felt apart and they were a part of it. Oh, falling apart, is anyone watching? Is anyone listening? Are we listening? And all I have, is all of me, and it's all that I can give"