i fail, therefore i am (alive)

hello.
i am human.
i try to be invincible but fail.
i strive to attain perfection.
i never attain perfection.
i get frustrated with myself too easily.
i put myself down.
i know i shouldn't.
i know i may not be right.
i do it anyway.
i rarely think that i do things right.
i feel disillusioned.
i grasp to understand things.
i find the harder i grasp the more elusive the understanding is.
i find the more i try to understand myself the more i don't understand.
i find that my own turmoil is best ignored and downplayed.
i find myself thinking that everyone else is better.
i find myself apologizing for my very presence.
i find myself going somewhere without knowing the destination.
i am growing.
i am improving.
i am human,
and i find myself thinking that this is true for everyone...
that if these do not apply to you,
then you are not human.
or at the very least...
not alive.