Tuesday, May 31, 2011

relief through deconstruction... well kind of.

last night in germany...

i'm going to miss this place terribly, the hospitable people, the land, the culture, the way of life, the food.
but i am ready to go to camp.
maybe not home, but camp.

...even though two of my favorite people no longer work there.
*sigh*
i just can't comprehend it...
at all...
great scot...
such a difficult situation, after 20 years to ship them out in such a way just for personnel changes...

-hours later-
all packed, underweight bag, and i have gained 8 pounds since arriving here.
Germany feeds me well...
then again, i had ice cream, a roll with nutella and rasberry jam, and 12-fruit juice before weighing myself so i could weight myself with my bag...
this helps with the 20 pound i lost last school year.

random:
i may seem to be right all the time, but i don't have to be right...
i just realized today how key that is.
i'm right (not all the time, but great scot...) yet it's not important to me.
i suppose that with as much as my mind has going on that i can't help but have so many notions that i'm right.
i've just experienced in my life people being ticked at me being right, and pouncing on me for being wrong.
suppose being wrong was never acceptable...

hmm...

great scot, i need to be up at 6:30, 3.5 hours of sleep tonight..

can't clarify the thought i have, too tired... sore all over aswell, suppose a few hours of soccer, practically tackling people for the ball, and climbing that rock wall a few times will do that to a person...

random:
dear lindsay,
STOP MESSING WITH YOUR ACNE.
find a new nervous habit.
get a chain for your favorite crown of thorns necklace and fidget about with that.
signed,
your sunburned/bleeding/oily face.

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