...what kind of plank?

*title to be read just the way jeremy says 'what kind of pie?' in the end of the phineas and ferb tv game-show episode.


crickets...
calm wind moving through my dorm...
i wish i had reason to be outside, or someone to be outside with...
ah well...
frisbee in half an hour...


random Bible reading...
Matthew 7
¹ "Do not judge, so that you won't be judged.  ² For with the judgment you use,  you will be judged, and with the measure you use,  it will be measured to you. ³ Why do you look at the speck in your brother's eye but don't notice the log in your own eye? ⁴ Or how can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' and look, there's a log in your eye? ⁵ Hypocrite! First take the log out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye. ⁶ Don't give what is holy to dogs or toss your pearls before pigs,  or they will trample them with their feet, turn, and tear you to pieces.


i knew the plank, speck, or whatnot verses were quite applicable for juding others or criticizing them when you had your own issues, yet i thought today...
well, what if you're trying to help someone with their own self-worth or happiness while you, yourself are misreble?
hmm...
not sure the same meaning applies, but it was just a random thought...
well, as in that modesty guild post i linked to a couple posts back, at least relationship-wise if you're not fully happy or content with yourself or not knowing where you are how can you really make someone else happy...?
well, and in me i'm oxymoronic...
fully content...
but still needing work...?
then again, everyone needs work...
and i suppose being content in my lack of self-confidence while progressively moving and growing puts me far ahead others...
yet it was just a random thought, especially startling with how i enjoy making others smile while i'm ridiculously down...
of course i enjoy making other people smile regardless, i just tend to joke my way out of my own insecurities and awkwardness...


and as for the first verse, i just try not to judge... yet with as cluttered and scattered as my mind is, there will always be a lot of guesses and opinions about people, yet i try not to apply them, think about them, and defiantly not share them as they're unfounded...
i'm right most of the time, actually...
but really, if i haven't any solid reason to believe it, i needn't say anything, especially negative things.


the last one... well, often this is how i feel about sharing my thoughts... i don't even put half of them on here...
well lately i suppose most of them are here, the snow is slow in returning to the snowglobe once it was melted...
yet it used to be i share anything and i would be trampled...
ridiculed...
yelled at...
so... suppose i have been conditioned to share nothing.
yet as i've said...
i'm still growing...
and always improving...