All at once, the world can overwhelm me...

random:
a while ago I took a walk with one of my friends, while we were by the church that's on campus we came across the end of a hopscotch game drawn in chalk that ended at number 100.
so naturally i hopped all the way to the beginning where it read 'here you are mom, have fun, i love you!' is misspelled elementary school penmanship.
there are not too many things in the world that make me want to be a parent as opposed to most girls that just saying 'awww!' at pretty much everything, but that's one of them.
that and seeing little kids skating around in their hockey jerseys, or little kids with huge hockey gloves skating around.
i want to go ice skating...
pity my only ice skating friend has a firm hold on the knife in my back.


i remember last fall, the first couple of days of september, may even have been last few days of august, i was jogging with a new friend and we were talking about sports that we wished we could have played when we were little. i said that if i had kids i hardcore wanted them to play hockey, that i definitely wanted to be a hockey mom. she laughed and said i definitely would be...
today it somehow came up that had i asked mom instead of dad to play hockey when i was younger i would have been able to, i was the 'ask once and never bring it up again' kind of kid.


-picks up post five hours later-


i've been reading 'the art of singing' by william shakespeare (not the one from stratford upon avon!) a book printed in the 30s i believe, perhaps 20s...
it's been on my piano for as long as i can remember, and today as i was looking at the range charts and noting that it mentioned contralto... my grandma said the book was my great-grandmothers...
since she couldn't afford lessons, that was how she learned to sing, she would play duets with the man from next door.
i really wish i had known my great-grandmother, to survive such hard times in her life, to love music so much... and i think that she would have loved to have a great-grandchild that took after her so, that wanted her to play the accompaniment so she could practice for her voice juries, that gets a warm fuzzy feeling thinking of the piano that will be hers and who played on it with such skill for years and years...
at anyrate, unknowingly reading her voice book just felt right.
wish i had someone in my family that really knew music...


*sigh*


unrelated, but life hurts, you know?


*curls up in ball*







All at once,
The world can overwhelm me
There's almost nothin' that you could tell me
That could ease my mind


Which way will you run
When it's always all around you
And the feelin' lost and found you again
A feelin' that we have no control
Around the sun
Some say
There's gonna be the new hell
Some say
It's still too early to tell
Some say
It really ain't no myth at all


Keep askin' ourselves are we really
Strong enough
There's so many things that we got
Too proud of
We're too proud of
We're too proud of


I wanna take the preconceived
Out from underneath your feet
We could shake it off
Instead we'll plant some seeds
We'll watch em' as they grow
And with each new beat
From your heart the roots grow deeper
The branches will they reach for what
Nobody really knows
But underneath it all
Theres this heart all alone


What about is gone
And it really won't be so long
Sometimes it feels like a heart is no place to be singin' from at all


Theres a world we've never seen
Theres still hope between the dreams
The weight of it all
Could blow away with a breeze
If you're waiting on the wind
Don't forget to breathe
Cause as the darkness gets deeper
We'll be sinkin as we reach for love
At least somethin we could hold
But I'll reach to you from where time just cant go


What about is gone
And it really wont be so long
Sometimes it feels like a heart is no place to be singin' from at all








EDIT:
whoever i end up with will indeed have to "take the preconceived" out from underneath my feet...
because this last one...
proved every preconceived notion right.
and then some.