would Rand be turning in her grave... or smirking?

nearly walking on top of a group of three rabbits while lost in thought kind of made me smile...
they just stared at me intently, i took my shoes off as not to alrm them and walked through the grass. they kept eating and i found myself feeling like Dickon from 'The Secret Garden'


i always love when you're outside long enough for the birds, squirrels and rabbit to start come and investigate you...


...or like today when they just don't notice you and you don't notice them.


mutual awkwardness is shared.


and then we all go on with our lives.


random:
had a nice discussion about Ayn Rand with one of the people involved in the theater department.
the fall play is the play she wrote before she began penning novels...
even though jerkface is auditioning (or so he loudly said to someone across from me when he sat a table down from me yesterday.) i think i may try out friday.
if i have to interact with him i wouldn't be myself, i'd hopefully be in character, right?
been too long since i've actually acted...
not experienced but it's a sizeable cast, may aswell try out.


hmm.


Lord, i'm weird, just so You know.
i try things, but i don't try things.
i'm shy but i'm not.
i'm outgoing...
but mostly i'm not.
primarily i'm not.


random:


this still has stock rand-characters.
if i land a Randian Heroine (doubt i will, that would definitely be the lead) then i think i would become way too apathetic...
yet i lack the self-confidence and 'virtue of selfishness' that Rand so firmly believes in.


...Lord, is it so terrible that all i would be able to see is Dagny Taggart's brother if what's his face is in the play?


...i'm just realizing that if i'm in a true randian character than i would have to act like a randian character...
i mean the strong ones, not the stark contrast that are typically set to be deplorable...


i think i'll probably understand rand more than the other people auditioning at anyrate.


oh great scot, i can really see the rand ideals the more i read about this play...
how she must have loved to see what end the audience chose!
will they choose her ideals and save her heroinne or prove all of the Wynand-paper readers she is destined to write about?!


fascinating...


i must be a part of this.