you have to start somewhere...

so.
i'm thinking that improv club is good for me.

...the way the guy leading it kept saying how we're not judging and there's no thinking that you're in adequate, not funny, not important, etc...

felt like he read this blog or something, crazy.

at anyrate even if i'm not that great at it...

even if i will probably think i'm not that good at it for a while before i just don't think about it...

i'll get there :)

at anyrate, not thinking, just doing, and being crazy will be good for me.

trying to do things in large groups will also be good for me...

i tend to get on the edge; not interact in any group i find myself and i saw some of that today; as soon as the group had three people i found myself on the edge wondering how i can still do something and not detract from what the others are doing... i figured just standing there wasn't an option.

or when we were all running around doing something (we were playing a game where someone yells out a suggestion like 'let's have a slumber party!' and then everyone pretends their at a slumber party...) and i yelled something...
no one hears...

okay, forget that suggestion. never said it.

i suppose i'm used to not being heard or noticed...

...after a while i did try it again and someone heard...

i suppose i'm only loud when using my 'i'm in charge and this needs done' counselor voice...

...i need more sleep, especially if i'm going to deal with 150 3/4th grade girls over the weekend... yikes...
...but i'm excited; outdoors and camp...