one post; several tangents...

driving home, window open, cool air breezing in as i watch the sunset straight ahead of me on the highway.
colors no one could ever dream of matching.


Lord, i love how all of that feels...
and sitting in the shade as the day wanes, the shadows growing taller...
*sigh*


i'm really looking forward to having a west-facing window. 
second story should give a good view over the trees and to the sky...
hope i can put my desk in front of the window.
that would be perfect...


*sigh*


random:
in our wild west vacation Bible school the lesson was about anger, how Jesus was justified in his anger at the temple, and we are instructed not to 'sin in our anger'
last sunday while studying Isaiah poetic justice was talked about in the sermon.


...okay Lord, trying to tell me something here?
reaffirming my views?
tangent: that's what a lot of sunday school has been lately...
my pastor has been going through the 'grace awakening' book...
'everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial' kind of thingish... within reason. murder, adultery for example.
that and how some people are convicted of things that others are not, not to be a stumbling block for those people
it has just bee reaffirming conclusions i already had, yet i think had we not been studying that my mom wouldn't have been okay with me hanging out with people that were drinking.
...i was impressed with her being okay with that.
she can be nice and fun...


...but not always, and not most of the time, yet it's getting better.




i regret that lately this has been a place for me to clarify thought as opposed to a place for me to actually say something...
i'm just pulling yarns out of my head...
trying to untangle the craziness...


i miss 'original' thoughts.
...not original, but newish.
then again, where have i not been?


there lies the danger of being on a deeper level...


you don't really have much perception of deep.
because you're already there.
...i'm not very deep.


by my perception.


however by my perception hardly anything is deep...
no one that i know has gone to the deep level...
i love quotes that deal deeply with things...
and i suppose i find depth in the outdoors.
in reading of the life in 'the secret garden' and the daydreams of 'anne of green gables'


...since people fail me i find depth in life.
the stars.
nature.
...the things i feel a part of.


if words and people cannot have depth then i seek the feel of depth...
the use of metaphors to describe a feeling...


it makes sense to me.