things that make me smile...

haha, i was working on my own in the theatre shop today.
...after making a crown for the lady i work for.
...and one for myself.
blue to bring out my eyes and gold to offset my hair, shiny foil pipe-cleaners twisted together and placed on my head like a medieval princess.
...they're supposed to be for the angels at the Christmas concert, yet we are only using silver and gold for those.


as i was sketching out a pot-bellied stove (and a mouse hole including a mouse with cheese in one corner, my mischievous streak is often useful and i love it greatly.) i danced about while listening to Christmas music.
ha, and with this song...
i'm not in love with anyone, i have no one in mind...
yet tossing in a few twirls between careful measurements...
i felt light on my feet, and singing along felt so right...
my innocent self let loose and the wide-eyed wonder so vivid, it was wonderful.


i love being me...


haha!


ah, and laughing for no reason. that is wonderful.


i love that feeling of clean life, innocence (albeit, i'm still very knowledgeable... but the innocence is that dirty things and such don't taint me, you know? some of my very 'corrupted' friends are very jealous of this...) and swirling snow.


...ah, yes, swirling snow.


how else can you explain the feeling?


and somehow down in the saw-dust while playfully picking only the m&m's from my boss's trail mix and sketching a smiling mouse in one corner of a panel i felt like whoever does end up with me will be the luckiest guy ever... and conversely, i'd be the luckiest girl ever because i could be that way, that swirling snow feeling in front of someone.
hopefully.
and i suppose the best part is that wasn't my primary thought, i was first the joy...
mmm, indeed...


or at least that was one thought among many...


ever see me smile for real?
i don't think anyone has, to tell the truth.
well Lord, You have.
Orion has.
that mouse i was drawing most certainly has.


ha, You're the one that created it...
ha, and Lord, i thank you for always standing back up...
and life.

*is somber*


*is somber too long, bursts out in a smile, laughs, and springs across the room to finish theory homework.*