need... sleep...

...
camp is ridiculously good for me.
jumping into my camp family is ridiculously good for me.


...and i miss my two favorite people in the world.
their absence and how the higher up people went about it all sickens me...
they had no warning, they were told they had a meeting, they went to town, and were told they didn't have jobs.
they had a month to get out of their on-site house but they left in a week.
...
great scot, no warning, no warning...
...

*sigh*
the camping board is going insane, one lady left the church and the board...
granted, she was always very particular, but she cared for that camp.

the new lady in charge (well she will be next year, this year we still have the program director...) is nice, i like her... not sure i like her for camp, i've only known her a day, but she is a good person.
and i trust the guy in charge, always knew he'd be the one driving that camp truck around someday, i just didn't expect it so soon and in that manner.
*sigh*
great scot, such a mess, but camp is going well.

yesterday i found myself clearing trails by myself...
a new lifeguard said she's allergic to ticks so she went to get bug spray... so the other counselor and i were on the trail.
then i lost the other counselor i was with, no idea where she went...
i was the only one on the right trail, so i cleared the brush form that trail, the main back trail, and the ball field trail.
i laughed as i remarked to God that just because i hadn't had time alone in ages it didn't mean he had to get the other people lost. it was nice hiking along on my own, cutting low branches, clearing small logs, large sticks, branches, trees growing in the path... it was nice to do work. real work.

random:
one of the counselors that i have been a camper with (actually, two i have been campers with, the other one a long long time ago) pretty much talks to his girlfriend all day on the phone.
and all night.
apparently it's hard for then to be apart since school is over?
he can't talk to her like that during camp...
great scot, he said they've been going out six months? is talking to her 24/7 really going to help her adjust...?
or him for that matter?
suppose it's hard to describe on the internet.

i love camp.

oddly enough, when most in my element with people i care about, new people that will be part of my camp family, when i'm myself... that's when i think of him and am glad i'm not going to end up with him.
ridiculously glad.
just doesn't fit.
and it shouldn't have happened.
i shan't over explain.
but oh well.

i like being me.
a lot.
and without him...

driving along on the highway to the tavern where camp staff had an amazing meal of ribs (hole in the wall place. amazing.) i looked around and thought of how many people in my jazz band talked about how ugly kansas was.
i like it.
and what's more i love the midwest way of life.
and the people.
definitely the people.

have i mentioned how good camp is for me?

i'm dead tired now however...
jet lag hasn't hit me, yet being up at 1:30 is a terrible notion.